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Friday 16th May

When I’m running, I prove to myself that there is a way forward, through the pain. 

When I lay in the ocean, I feel the heaviness wash away. 

When I climb a tree, I see a new perspective. 

In nature, change is the only constant.

This will pass. And there’s something beautiful on the other side. 

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Tuesday 13th May Billies a proud sponsor for this cause. Especially on the days like today... in a fragile state lately, at telowie home with mum, dad and dogs, taking it day by day. My brains a big meany. I might have to change my medication. Didn’t run today but I hope to run tomorrow! Share

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Tuesday 13th May

I hit crisis earlier this year, I genuinely thought that I’d never be back there again.. 

My dad took me to the beach the following day.. we talked a lot about how to make things better for me, we’ve had a lot of this conversation over the years..

 “take the good, and make it bigger”  

routine, nature, exercise, things I love, people I love, mindset all that… it’s helpful to talk about at times but I often feel like we’ve absolutely exhausted that conversation. 

When it comes to mental illness, there’s a window for control and at times it can get very narrow.. 

 “But dad, what if it’s not up to me?” 

“Maybe it’s not, maybe it’s up to the universe or fate or whatever” 

… I felt the burden lift off me a little. 

you see, the person that has wanted to die and tried to die, that’s not me, that’s not a person. That’s an illness. I want to live more than anything. 

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Sunday 11th May https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZm24sQFj7A Share

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Saturday 3rd May

Last week I was in an episode of deep despair that kept me up for more than 2 days straight. 

Now I’m good, and I feel a bit silly, because I’m so good. But that’s the thing, I live in a world of extreme highs and lows and the “in between” isn’t a place where I spend much time. 

Science and psychology can state the facts about bipolar. But I think there’s things about it that even science can’t explain. Parts of it that are only to be felt and known. 

To Feel the experience of light and dark to the deepest most extraordinary levels… 

It’s no coincidence why some of the most spiritual, insightful, creative, intelligent humans are bipolar. 

Some of the most world famous art was produced in mania or born out of deep despair... Its fascinating to think about ..  💭💭 

But anyways we need us alive, for the world experience us. And I guess that’s why I’m here, running, sharing, fundraising. Hopefully it makes some impact.. even if it just a little one. 

Thanks for supporting this cause to support and help keep some incredible humans alive. 

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Saturday 26th Apr Until mental illness receives the same level of attention and support and physical illness, we are not where we need to be.  Share